Vox
The presence of other people destroy the creative avenues of my mind. I could use these people as canon fodder-- er, material for writing, however, I don't really care about them that much. They are merely annoyances I must wade through during my day to get to the inevitable goal of going home. Basically, I'm a solo act, baby, everyone else is trampling on my flow.
It's really always been that way for me. I'm more creative on my own. When in a group setting, one tends to let go of what they think in order to compromise for the direction of what the group is thinking. I don't like that. So, this is humbling for me in a way. It is humbling for me to have to DEAL with people. Isn't that strange? It's not normal, that's for sure. It's almost as if being around people on a constant basis sucks my will to live.
And it's hard, it really is. It's hard to insert all your little quirks in when there are so many others shoving to get theirs in, as well. It all boils down to one thing:
They don't care what I think. I really don't care what they think, either. We're just shoved in a situation together where we must DEAL with each other. I don't know how. I don't think I came with those functions. My mute button is broken. What is a polite way of telling someone they suck? I don't know. Apparently telling someone that talking to them is like talking to a wall (only you can get more useful information out of the wall) is not polite. Apparently telling someone that you'd rather get your tooth pulled than be around them is not very nice. I must be polite, you know. I don't dare even dream of going against the group mentality, especially when they are senior to me. Actually, I dream of this daily, but can't because I don't want to lose my job. The odd thing is that I do like my job; I just hate people.
Anyway, back to the humility part. It is humbling for me to hold my tongue. But at the end of the day, perhaps it is more wise this way. Sometimes it is better to leave things left unsaid. I'm human and I make mistakes, too. Maybe if I stop being so critical of others, I could learn to DEAL with them better. Because you can only hold your fingers up in the air, so that their head fits in the space between your fingers, while you smash your fingers together in a mock attempt to smush their head so many times before you start seeking other avenues. I must've mock-smushed about a thousand heads, yesterday. I just need to learn to deal with people. All I can say is that it's a good thing I don't have divine powers. Otherwise, there'd be a lot of headless people walking around my town. But hey, at least it'd be a lot less noisy.
It's really always been that way for me. I'm more creative on my own. When in a group setting, one tends to let go of what they think in order to compromise for the direction of what the group is thinking. I don't like that. So, this is humbling for me in a way. It is humbling for me to have to DEAL with people. Isn't that strange? It's not normal, that's for sure. It's almost as if being around people on a constant basis sucks my will to live.
And it's hard, it really is. It's hard to insert all your little quirks in when there are so many others shoving to get theirs in, as well. It all boils down to one thing:
They don't care what I think. I really don't care what they think, either. We're just shoved in a situation together where we must DEAL with each other. I don't know how. I don't think I came with those functions. My mute button is broken. What is a polite way of telling someone they suck? I don't know. Apparently telling someone that talking to them is like talking to a wall (only you can get more useful information out of the wall) is not polite. Apparently telling someone that you'd rather get your tooth pulled than be around them is not very nice. I must be polite, you know. I don't dare even dream of going against the group mentality, especially when they are senior to me. Actually, I dream of this daily, but can't because I don't want to lose my job. The odd thing is that I do like my job; I just hate people.
Anyway, back to the humility part. It is humbling for me to hold my tongue. But at the end of the day, perhaps it is more wise this way. Sometimes it is better to leave things left unsaid. I'm human and I make mistakes, too. Maybe if I stop being so critical of others, I could learn to DEAL with them better. Because you can only hold your fingers up in the air, so that their head fits in the space between your fingers, while you smash your fingers together in a mock attempt to smush their head so many times before you start seeking other avenues. I must've mock-smushed about a thousand heads, yesterday. I just need to learn to deal with people. All I can say is that it's a good thing I don't have divine powers. Otherwise, there'd be a lot of headless people walking around my town. But hey, at least it'd be a lot less noisy.
posted by Ari at 7:57 PM
5 Comments:
OMG! A couple of friends and I used to do this all the time saying "Smoosh the head!" as we did.... Only aloud so the person knew we were doing it! {LOL} What can I say... we were bored, they were easy targets, and we were (and still are) weird!
Mock attempt to mush heads...I have to use that one. Saying stuff under my breath isn't working anymore.
I seem to lose my identity when I am at work. There are some nice people there, then there are the ones who are jerks. There are always going to be jerks wherever we go. People always try to tell me not to let them get to me, but it's easier said than done.
I just dream of stabbing them with my pen and slowly turning it making them scream out in horrific pain. ::smiles sweetly::
I put the eebies on them with my piercing eyes, they wilt souls and such. I also use a combination of offhandedness and sarcasm in silent stare form which works well.
People need to be shown, in no uncertain terms, how badly they suck ass.
I'm with La Slinky One - the soul-crushing stare of death usually works for me.
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