Tuesday, May 30, 2006

My Very First Mission

We woke up before the sun, which is a huge thing for me, as we all know how much I do love to sleep. I had exactly an hour and a half of sleep, but that's all right. One of women that is in Soldier's Angels had given Chris a t-shirt to give to me. I thought that was sweet. I wore it. We all loaded into the truck with the Metatron safely strapped to the trailer in back. It took us two and half hours to drive to Galesburg.

We were the first to arrive at the meeting site, which was a Harley Davidson store. The owner had been gracious to let them all meet there in his parking lot. We unloaded the Metatron, Kade wiped it down. Chris brought out the flags.

About a week ago, I kept getting phone calls from the governor of Illinois. I thought it was just because of the law that was about to be passed, but also the governor was making sure Chris would be there. And he was. The governor presented Chris with the Illinois State flag for all his work with the Patriot Guard. I'll be honest. I did not vote for Blagojevich. But I do have respect for the man. He's going to the funerals, too.

Kade would be holding the State flag today. Chris handed me the camera. They all started rolling in. I took loads of pictures. Bikes were everywhere. Vets were everywhere. Chris introduced me to a man named Joel, with his son standing next to him. His son, that had just returned from Iraq a few days before. I talked to a little guy named Brock. I told him that was a fine name. Hehe, well I think so given that it's part of my name. His older brother introduced himself. He's Cody. He's four. He was proud that he'd get to ride in his dad's truck with a flag that had lettering "Never Forget". I told his mother he was a cutie.

I met lots of Vets. I wasn't able to catch all their names, so I apologize for that, since I can't mention you all by name. Chris introduced me to a man named Max, affectionately called "Top" by many of the riders. Max had been in Viet Nam in '66 and '68. Max had his van with him. On the side was a big sign that read "Patriot Guard Riders". He had flags on the top of the van. In the back of the van were about fifty American flags all cradled there, awaiting hands to hold them. He didn't buy those flags. They'd all been given to him from other soldiers and what not. Pretty amazing, I think. Max said I'd be riding with him; he was to lead the procession.

I also met Linda. She worked at Wal-Mart. She loves red white and blue. She made a wall honoring soldiers at Wal-Mart. The families come in and give her a picture. She puts it up there. It's her little tribute to them. She also made it possible so that Wal-Mart donated bottled water for today's ride. She is a very good woman, sweet as pie. She is also somehow related to Max, but both of them jokingly declare it's not so. She handed out pins to everyone. On this pin is a picture of Matt Maupin, who had gone missing in Iraq in 2004. He has yet to be found. She made these pins herself. Amazing woman.

Pretty soon, there were even more bikes rolling in. I was going picture crazy, snapping off as many as I could. (It would only be later in the evening that we would find out that only three of those pictures came out. I am heartbroken, as I wanted to have pictures with this entry. I wanted to show the faces of the Patriot Guard.)

Chris debriefed the riders on today's mission. On any other day, the little town of Galesburg might have seen all these bikers and thought their town was being overrun. On any other day. But not today. Today's mission was a bit different. Galesburg had invited the Patriot Guard to ride in their Memorial Day parade. Max organized this. He told me later, that he'd thought it would help get the word out on exactly what the Patriot Guard stood for.

We all loaded up, the riders in line formation. I looked out the rearview window to watch them turn the corner out on to the street, all together, all in a line. It was so spectacular. It nearly took my breath away. We rode to the parade meeting site. Again, we were the first there. We were lined up on a residential block. Some of the residents HAD to know we were going to be there, as they had home-built bikes on their lawns. Pretty soon, a huge humvee parked directly in front of us. Three soldiers got out of it. I hurried my little butt over there to snap pictures. Max hurried over to me. "I asked them if they would ride in front of us! And they agreed! Won't that be great?" Everytime Max told me something, I couldn't help but smile.

That's when I saw Andrea Zinga making her way down the line. I recognized her immediately. We had met her at Park Days at Southpark in Quincy. It was a local fair sort of thing. She didn't recognize us, Chris didn't recognize her. But I did. And I told her so. We all spoke for a few minutes, before Chris went back to talk with the soldiers. Andrea and I spoke for awhile there. She told me I must be really proud of him.

"I am proud of ALL of them," I said, as I looked at the Vets, scattered throughout various lawns, all engaged in conversations of their own.

"It's amazing what they do. Why do you think they do it?" she asked.

"You may support the war. You may not support the war. But these men won't just sit and do nothing. They will always DO," I said.

"Yes, I suppose you're right. I suppose that's why Cindy Sheehan does what she does. To sit around and do nothing would drive her crazy, maybe," Mrs. Zinga said.

"Maybe," I said.

We spoke for a few minutes more. I told her about Brian and Amy both in the Navy. She looked at me incredulously, that I might have two kids old enough to be in the military. I pointed out Kade, who was wearing a Jonathan Kyle Price tshirt, picking dandelions on the curb. I showed her the Metatron with the Angel holding baby Logan. I told her about Logan. She looked at Matt Maupin's pin.

"Thank you. I am so glad you do what you do," she said.

"Oh, don't thank me. Thank THEM," I said, pointing to the Vets.

She left to go to her own parade car. We all lined up to get ready. As it turned out, Kade tried his hardest to hold that flag, but the Illinois State flag is much bigger than he is. Chris came to me in the van and asked if I would hold it instead. Wow. We made our down the street, people lined up on both sides.

"I'm glad I made that sign," Max said, "Now people will know who we are."

He no more got that out of his mouth, when the onlookers got up out of their lawnchairs and began clapping. Old ladies rushed to the curb to snap pictures. One man stood and saluted, never breaking form until we had passed.

"Max, I think they know who you are," I told him.

"This is bringing to my eye," he said.

The Patriot Guard revved their engines to acknowledge the onlookers. They clapped harder and cheered. In all my years of Memorial Days, in all the time I spent looking at parades myself, never have I gotten the chance to truly appreciate why we have this day. And it wasn't until I got to see this day through the eyes of the Vet sitting next to me that it all hit me. I couldn't answer Max, as I was getting a bit choked up myself.

After the parade, the VFW read the names of fallen soldiers from their town. The Patriot Guard held those flags that were in Max's van. They lined the side with those flags saluting, while the names were read. It was truly amazing.

Afterwards, they all dispersed. Max led us to Wal-Mart so Chris could thank the manager for donating water, and also so he could see Linda's wall. Linda took us to Hy-Vee to meet the woman that had made ribbons for the Vets to put on their bikes. She had lost a daughter to this war. She had a basket full of ribbons she had made herself to honor Caleb Lufkin, whose body is being escorted by the Patriot Guard to Galesburg as I write this. She gave these ribbons away for free. All of this, she'd done out of the goodness of her heart.

We left soon after. I went to visit my brother, who lives in Galesburg. Then, it was time to go home. As I write the close for this entry, I just want to thank all of the Patriot Guard for what they do. I want to thank the Vets for their service. I especially want to thank Linda for her work and Max. Dear Max, thank you so much for not only letting me ride with you, but lead the procession, as well. I can't thank you enough. You are truly the best of the best.

When speaking with Representative Zinga, she asked me why they do what they do. I would like another chance to answer that question, as I don't believe I got it quite right the first time.

They do it, because they are heros. The beauty of it all is that they will never admit to such a thing. They are far too honorable for that. But if you look closely you can see it. The answer to that question lies in the glimpse of their eyes when they gaze upon the flag. The answer to that question lies in the hang of their head, as wars today and long since past echo forth, as they honor their long lost brethren. The answer to that question lies in the fact that no military branch, nor race, nor creed can divide them as they unite and stand as one.

There has never been, nor could there ever truly be anything so honorable, nor a greater tribute as that.

Sunday, May 21, 2006

Damn Kids

We live on a heavy traffic street. Because of this traffic, I am loathe to let Kade play in the front yard by himself. You never know. I must say that despite there being a bar about a block away, ordinarily, we never hear anything after nine at night. It's a pretty quite town. Well, usually...

Last night around midnight, I laid down in bed. I wasn't going to sleep, more like catching a second wind before the late night hours. Both dogs were inside, but it was Angel that started barking up a storm. I couldn't figure out why. If someone is at the door, Sasha usually goes nuts too. Well, this was enough to prompt me out of bed. Angel was barking, because Chris was letting Sasha outside without letting her go too. Ok, cool, I get it now. But why was Chris awake?

As it turns out (I couldn't hear it apparently), there was a commotion outside that woke Chris up. He let Sasha out, so she could guard the yard. In front of our house, about thirty youths were fighting in the street. One was screaming at another that he'd broken a bottle upside his face. Kade came downstairs, but I made him stay in another room. Someone started yelling about a gun, so I got the phone and Chris called the cops. As soon as the sirens started wailing, they all ran for the cars which were parked alongside the road. These kids were in the friggin' street, blocking traffic and everything. Not one of the other cars attempted to do anything. They just drove around them. Crazy, isn't it?

I guess the kid that got a bottle smashed against his head went to the hospital in an ambulance. After watching all this, I heard something in the background. I asked a neighbor what that noise was. (I realize I sound like a complete fogey for saying that, but I couldn't hear it distinctly to make out what it was.) Apparently, there was some sort of band at a school that was playing music loudly (well it had to be loud if I could hear it more than a few blocks away). And there was beer there. So I'm guessing that's where all this started. My question is, why the hell would a school have a band playing at midnight at night while serving beer?! Hello!?

Crazy, just crazy, I tell ya.

Thursday, May 18, 2006

Because I Can

It isn't enough that I appreciate this song all on my own. No, I must subject you all to it, as well. You are hearing the One Winged Angel: Advent Children Remix. Thanks to Bedazzled (who is my new hero) I also have the original One Winged Angel: Orchestral Sephiroth Choir version. Isn't she sweet for sending me that?

There's nothing like video game music to get your blood pumping.

Wednesday, May 17, 2006

Utter Disbelief

I am dumbfounded. I am dumbfounded, confused and unsure of the ways of the world. I was fine up until about three days ago. Now I am just sitting here in a blanket of confusion and disbelief. How could this happen? I don't know what to do. I don't know if I'll be able to move on from this. It's so shocking and just... WRONG! How could this be? Help me understand...

BECAUSE I CANNOT FATHOM HOW PANSY-BOY LITTLE HIPPY ARAS COULD EVER BEAT OUT THE WONDERFUL SUPERMAN TERRY!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Yeah that's right, I said it. I guess capitalistic greed won out over his hippy yoga ways. Hypocrite. Somebody outta send Doucheboy some rocks as a momento. "Remember when this was in your back because your drunkass fell on the rocks?!" I think I will. And that's all I have to say about that.

Wednesday, May 10, 2006

Black Wolf

National Geographic is one of my favorite channels of all time. While browsing through channels, I always pause on that one to see what's on. The other day, there was a commercial for children's books about animals. They showed a book about wolves. And there on the screen, I swore was Sasha staring back at me. Sometimes, I wonder...

Angel is purebred, so there's no mistaking her yorkie ways. Sasha was rescued, however. We have no idea what breed she is. Even the vet is unable to determine, although she thinks that since Sasha's tail curls upward onto her back, that she is some sort of chow mix. But even then, she wouldn't commit to labeling her that.

After watching that commercial on National Geographic, I went to look up pictures of black wolves...


Picture of a black wolf taken from the web

Another photo of a black wolf


Picture of Sasha taken last December

As you can see, the only difference is the tail. Sometimes, I wonder if there isn't a wolf in my back yard. The similarities don't end there, either. She is totally afraid of humans. Even babies. She is very territorial. Although she won't leave the yard, she gets pissed if anyone goes near it. Sometimes she even barks at me. Granted, I tell her to shut up and she does, but still. Even when she's guarding the yard, she does it from a distance. There's no way she'd ever go up to a human at the fence, unless it was family. And even then, there are some family members she keeps her distance from. My brother scares the hell out of her. He's never been anything but nice to her, but she won't go near him. I can't take her for walks, because she is afraid of people. I can't take her to the park. I can't even take her to the vet. Chris has to do it. Being the "leader of the pack", he's the only one she will listen to when she is scared out of her mind.

We have to make special arrangements when it comes to her. She was the one thing I worried about the most when we went on vacation. I could leave Angel with anyone and not worry. Sasha is a different story. There are only certain people she is okay with being around. If the doorbell rings, I have to make sure she is either outside or on her leash before I answer the door. I can never just go answer the door like normal people do.

If she is just a chow breed, I don't understand where this fear comes from. She has never been abused by a stranger or anyone else for that matter. She came from a farm. The farmer had found a box of newborn pups and took care of them until they were old enough to be adopted off. The farmer was a nice guy. He never would've hurt her. I don't know... I guess she could just be an ornery dog. But sometimes, when she stalks the yard the way that she does, I have to wonder.

Monday, May 08, 2006

Sigh

As I walked out the door to go pick up my son from school today, I stopped short and thought, "Shit, forgot to put on a bra." Stay with me on this one, because this is where the logic gets all fuzzy. I reasoned that since I'd be in the car, no one would see me, therefore I could get away with it. So I went on without going back to trudge through my dresser. <---- Stupid.

I grabbed my soda, walked through the door, turned around, made sure the door was locked, then shut the door. That's when I realized, I did not have my car keys in my hand. The house keys are on the same ring as the car keys. This means, I was not only locked out of my car, but my house, as well. With no bra. And as it goes, no undies, either.

Okay, okay, I can explain that last one, too. I ordinarily do not go commando. However, I do love to wear form-fitting work-out pants. They're just comfy. The problem with these pants is that you can't wear normal underwear or you'll get pantylines. I didn't want to wear a thong, because I wasn't in the mood to have something up my butt all day... So I went without underwear, figuring, no one would see me, so who cares?

Except, I locked myself out of the house and the car. So I would have to face people in order to remedy this situation. Greaaaaaaat. So my non-happy ass walked the few blocks to Kade's school to pick him up. I stood outside for a good five minutes, then I realized, this still does not solve the key problem. It was at that moment that Kade's best friend's mother and grandmother decided to drive by, waving at me. Perfect. I waved back then crossed the street, eyeing the mothers cautiously for familiar faces. I crossed my arms in front of my chest, figuring that if I looked mad, people would be less likely to talk to me. Plus, I could sort of cover up the fact that I had no bra. Don't you just love my logic?

As it turned out, the secretary let me call my Chris from the principal's phone. I told my Chris that I had locked myself out of the house. This is what he said to me:

"Drive over here, I'll give you mine."

Don't you just love his logic? If I had the car, I would be able to get in the house, dumbass! Keys. are. on. the. same. ring. Somehow, I resisted the urge to screech and politely asked him to bring me the keys. He told me he'd send someone. Nice. Now, not only did I have to face the school secretary and the other mothers without a bra, but one of his employees as well. Lovely, I'm sure they're going to just loooooooove my style. Did I mention that it was warm today? That means that once I had picked up Kade and trudged home, I was then sweaty. Yummy.

From now on, no more commando days. And further more, I'd rather let them see my pantylines. What a shitty day.

Wednesday, May 03, 2006

Story Meme

I'm totally late with this, but in my defense, I had to babysit a little one for the past two days. Anyway, I have been tagged with a story meme. Click here to go to Charles' blog to read the first part of it.

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Jaime tried to open his eyes. His mind whirled in a sluggish state of confusion. What had just happened? His eyes opened to utter darkness. He shook his head in disbelief when he saw this void. Where was the street? Where were the shops and vendors? Where was he?
Suddenly, a small speck of light appeared before his eyes. Slowly, ever so slowly, it became larger and larger, until Jaime could make out its appearance. A woman? No... It's head appeared human, although it's head was down, blocking the view. Jaime noticed long legs nestled beneath. The most striking aspect of its appearance was that it had wings where arms should be. It's color reminded Jaime of the beautiful cerulean blue of the sea.
Slowly, it lifted it's head. It let out a shrill eagle-like cry that hurt Jaime's ears. Then, it looked directly at him and said, "You are not ready yet." Jaime felt a sudden push. His body tumbled backwards, before everything went dark again.
He peeped one eye open, as he propped his fallen body up by the elbow. Startled, he glanced around to find a cobblestone street with many different people walking about. He didn't recognize this street at all. Where was he? And the bird-woman, was this all a dream?
"Oi, kid, outta the way!" a deep male voice boomed.
"Shhh, be nice. You'll scare him!" this voice was much softer.
Jaime picked himself up off the street. He saw a tough guy dressed in a leather duster. Next to him was a smaller pixie-like girl in a tiny pink dress.
"Hi, I'm Doji!" the pixie-girl exclaimed, grabbing Jaime's hand, "And this is Le Sharc."
She pointed to the tough guy, who gave a small salute.
"Uh... hi, I'm Jaime," he responded.
"Jaime? What kind of a name is that?" Doji wondered, "Well, Jaime, let's be going. There's lots to do and we don't have much time."
"What do you mean?" Jaime asked.
"Celeste sent us. We need to hurry if we're to help you with your journey," Doji explained.
"Who is Celeste?" Jaime scratched his head.
"Did he hit his head or something?" Le Sharc wondered.
"You know, Celeste!! Oh come on, you don't know? She's a Watcher from the skies," Doji looked at him curiously, "You really don't know?"
"The bird woman?"
"Yes! Celeste," Doji exclaimed, "Now let's get going. We have to hurry if we're going to buy the Jewel of the Sea. Tell me you have money..."
Jaime remembered the coin. He looked down to see it was still firmly within his grasp. He eyed both Doji and Le Sharc. Who were these people? What were they all about? He didn't have time to think of much else, as Doji grabbed his hand and yanked him down the street. After much tugging and pulling, Jaime finally yanked his hand away.
"Now wait just a minute! What is going on here? Where is my home? My mother? Where am I? What journey are you talking about? I'm not going anywhere until you start answering me, " Jaime cried.
"Do you always let them talk to you this way, Doji?" a voice from behind Jaime asked.
Jaime turned around to see a man dressed completely in black.
"Who're you?!"
"That's Amor, Lord of Brutte," Doji sighed, turning her attention to the man in black, "Are you gonna help us get this kid going or what?"
Amor arrogantly leaned closer, "I suppose I could help... but you owe me one, Doji."
"Enough, already," Le Sharc ordered, "Move it, kid!"
And with that, Jaime found himself in strange company in a world he'd never seen...
I hereby tag Doji...er I mean, Jodi!

Monday, May 01, 2006

Monday Musings

Final Fantasy: Advent Children kicks ass! And that's all I have to say about that.

No wait, I have a question, actually. For all you Final Fantasy addicts out there, is it just me or does the One-Winged Angel theme song get you all pumped up, too? I swear, that song was made JUST for an adrenaline boost. Maybe one day, I'll find an mp3 of it and get it on this blog, heheheh.

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Last Friday, Kade had a play at school. He was the narrator and he took his part very seriously. He sat on his chair, hand on chin, legs crossed, reading the script. He was so cute. He looked like a little actor! I was so proud of him.
Of course, he would look at me to make sure I was watching. Then he'd throw a few flirty looks to the secretary, because a day can't go by without those two flirting with each other. Yes, yes it's cute and all that. But sometimes I worry. If he can make grown women blush NOW, what am I going to do with him in his teenage years?!